Have you ever done something completely out of the ordinary? Something you NEVER EVER do? Well, this past weekend I did something completely out of the ordinary, and something I never ever do, and I took a trip (by myself) to visit my sweet sister-in-law & her husband. We had been planning a girls weekend for at least a month, and we were actually going to do it! What?! I couldn’t believe it.. I was actually doing something that I planned on doing.. and didn’t let anyone or anything stop me!
We went to Nashville and had the best girls day exploring (something I never do). We spent another entire day shopping, while my amazingly patient brother-in-law drove us around (something I never do). I bought clothes for MYSELF (something I never do) and “big girl” sandals for myself (something I never do)… can you picture this trip?! It was wonderful!
On our glorious shopping day, over a Moe’s chicken burrito bowl, I poured out my heart a little bit about my struggles (something I never do). I don’t even know how we got on the conversation, or why I was even spilling my guts, but I just did. We talked about church struggles, and faith struggles, and life struggles. It’s so easy to sit behind this keyboard and share something AMAZING about God, and probably sound like I have it all figured out and that my relationship with Him is perfect. Well, it’s not. I struggle with feeling connected to other Christians. I struggle with being that Godly wife that the Bible talks about. I struggle with surrounding my children with Godly examples and a great church home base. I’m far, far from perfect when it comes to things like that. I’m failing miserably.
After finishing our lunch, we got up and went on with our day. I immediately felt bad for sharing so much of the things I keep secret. I felt like I was setting myself up to being judged and I felt like I had disappointed those who I care about. I don’t think God would ever make me feel that way, especially when I’m turning to others for guidance. So, I thought.. well, this must be satan then. I got to thinking about this trip all together, and how it’s something completely out of the ordinary for me.. something I never do. It all happened for a reason. It all happened because God knew what I needed. He knew I needed that encouragement. He knew I was in a place to hear it, and accept it, and turn things around. He was written all over it.
After I came back home and settled back in to my normal routine, my sister-in-law and I exchanged a few emails. We kept the conversation we had at lunch that previous weekend going. In response to me sharing with her how I felt about our current life situation (we have been married almost 10 years, we’ve completely started over and are going back to school, and basically – we just aren’t where I thought we’d be at this point in our lives or our marriage) she said to me “Dreams are so much fun, but don’t let them dampen your LIFE”. Don’t let your dreams dampen your life. Oh my goodness, yes.
We have so much going for us right now. I know I’ve mentioned this before, but it’s so nice to be reminded. THIS is where we are supposed to be RIGHT NOW. THIS is our waiting on the Lord. Our kids will never be this young again. We need to live life in the PRESENT and make this life amazing and let God work out the details of our future. We need to thrive in our current situation. We can’t put our life on hold because we are waiting on something better. (think of all the things we’d miss!) Goodness, I’m just so fired up about this. I feel so happy that God used this past weekend to bring me so much encouragement and hope and direction.
I guess there are 2 things I’d love for anyone to take away from my ramblings today. (1) Do things that are out of the ordinary for you. Even something as simple as going shopping with your sister-in-law! I’m a hermit, and for some reason I get anxious if I stray form my “normal” routine, so things like that I just don’t do. Goodness, I’m so thankful that I did! (2) Don’t let your dreams dampen your life. While you’re working towards those dreams, THRIVE in your life now. You can’t get these minutes/hours/days/months/years back. They’re still part of the journey, and God is still using you IN THESE MOMENTS. Don’t let that pass you by.. don’t put your life on hold!
I am just feeling so thankful for God’s wonderful grace and the friendships He brings my way. I hope y’all are feeling blessed today, too!