Whew! I’m having one of “those weeks”, and it’s only Tuesday. Seems pretty cruel, doesn’t it? I feel like my week has been a big ball of frustration and stressful situations. I’ve tried so desperately to seek the meaning for my troubles (that may seems so small, but sometimes small things feel so big). It just seems like the worst possible timing for a lot of it.
A rolling pin that I haven’t used in probably 2 years or seen in 6 months fell out of my upper kitchen cabinet right onto my new iPhone yesterday, and I do believe it’s a goner. I cried when it happened.. all I could see were dollar signs going out the window. THANKFULLY that phone was free, but I know my next phone won’t be. But anyways.. life goes on. I have told a couple friends today that I feel like everything happens for a reason, and I was just trying to wrap my head around the REASON my phone needed to be shattered. Especially right now, when I feel like I actually REALLY need it. Was it satan trying to really get to me and cause unwanted stress? Or, what is God because I asked Him to help me be less dependent on my cell phone? If it WAS God, completely destroying it wasn’t really what I had in mind, but maybe that’s what needed to happen to make me fully understand what it means to be less dependent on my cell phone. I know that He will provide for us and that I will get another phone in the future, but this time – maybe I will do better about not being on it sooooo much. I wanted to focus on what REALLY matters, right? I’m pretty much forced to now..
Today I had Shelby’s car, because he is using mine this week, and as usual I parked in my parking lot with my staff tag – which had been taken off of my car. I went down for lunch, and I had a warning ticket on my windshield because I had a student AND staff tag on my car. Doesn’t really make much sense, but whatever. I had to leave my spot, and when I came back on campus I had to park in a different lot that wasn’t really for my staff tag OR Shelby’s student sticker. I prayed that my car just wouldn’t get a ticket, and that next time I’d park in Shelby’s student lot and walk across campus. I came out after work to a ticket-free car, and a promise to keep that I will park in Shelby’s lot and walk across campus..haha. Is it satan causing me to stress over the extra minutes that it’s going to take to walk across campus on top of having to take both kids to school tomorrow morning .. causing me to more than likely be late? OR, is it God making me take that extra walk across campus because I asked for some more alone time with Him?
I think my devotional from Jesus Calling is a perfect explanation of what’s happening this week : Approach this day with awareness of who is Boss. As you make plans for the day, remember that it is I who orchestrate the events of your life. On days when things go smoothly, according to your plans, you may be unaware of My sovereign Presence. On days when your plans are thwarted, be on the lookout for Me! I may be doing something important in your life, something quite different from what you expected. It is essential at such times to stay in communication with Me, accepting My way as better than yours. Don’t try to figure out what is happening. Simply trust Me and thank Me in advance for the good that will come out of it all. I know the plans I have for you, and they are good.
Can I just take a moment to say “Thank you, God”? Thank you for giving me some insight to what’s going on lately, thank you for reminding me to seek YOU in times of stress or frustration, thank you for always knowing what’s best for me, even when it upsets me or causes me inconvenience.
“Don’t try to figure out what’s happening” .. OK, God. I trust you and I THANK YOU in advance for the good that will come out of it all.