Being More Up than Down

FELLOWSHIP FRIDAYI’m a pretty blessed girl.  I still have friends checking in on me to see how I’m doing in the wake of my depression “stuff”.  It means a lot to me.  And for those who have been making a point to let me know they’re thinking about me, I want to say a huge THANK YOU.  I sincerely appreciate you!

I’ve been on my new medication for almost 2 months now.  At first, I feel like I was on a high.  I had the motivation, the desire, and the “want to” for a lot of things.  In turn, accomplishing all of those things made me happy and motivated me to do more, more, more!  Over the last few weeks though, I feel like things have leveled off.  I don’t know that it’s necessarily that my meds aren’t working, but I think my body has kind of settled in with them to where it’s taken the edge off a little bit.  I have good days, and I have bad days.  I have bad weeks, too.  It’s something that I’m trying to work through and consciously think about and think of how I can pull myself out of it.  I still go through periods where I don’t want to talk to anybody, where I don’t want to go anywhere, where I struggle getting out of bed, and where I feel trapped inside my own mind.  (Believing false thoughts!)

Relief from these negative feelings comes when I am able to realize and acknowledge that I am weak.  When I’m able to see that satan likes me to be the Miranda that feels awful about herself, that doesn’t want talk to her friends or family, that doesn’t want to go anywhere or do anything, that doesn’t want to better herself physically and mentally.  You see, when I’m feeling all of those things, I tend to isolate myself from those who can help me.  In those moments I feel alone.  Satan likes for us to feel alone.  That’s when he can feed us lies without distraction.  

What’s kind of scary to me is when we are in that moment (that moment of isolation), we don’t always realize that’s what’s going on.  We can’t see what we are doing to ourselves and how we are making ourselves more and more open to satans attacks.  I read an article about not letting satan steal your motherhood. (which is amazing, by the way! You can read it here)  In the article, the author mentions, “I might as well have left the front door unlocked and allowed a thief to come right in my home yesterday. I mean, why not? I let satan in.” You guys, how many times do we do this?! Don’t let satan steal your LIFE, your JOY, your PURPOPSE, your CALLING from GOD Himself! This can apply in so many areas of our lives.  

And just like that, I’ve acknowledged that I am weak, I acknowledge that I’ve allowed satan to come in and wreck my mind, I acknowledge to God that I’m laying these burdens down at His feet (Matthew 11:28-30), and I don’t feel so alone anymore.  I feel refreshed and made new.  I feel loved and appreciated.  I feel worthy and valued.  I feel His love shine over me and His words of affirmation and love from the voices and the actions of others.  I’m able to break free from the chains that were holding me down and accomplish those goals I have set for myself. I feel free. 

Don’t ever doubt His love for you.  No matter what you are going through, no matter how alone you feel, no matter how worthless you feel – know that those feelings are all lies.  Know that you are strong, and you are worthy, and you are loved by GOD.  The one who made everything you see around you.  He loves you..and He chose you.

And watch satan run in fear … 

(PS : No, I don’t capitalize satan’s name .. I don’t think he’s worth it)

Miscellaneous Monday

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We had the best weekend! Lots of fun in the sun, and some productive minutes squeezed in between. I wish all weekends were 3 day weekends.. 2 days just aren’t enough!

our nesting place blogOn Saturday Tristan & Kate got to go to a pool party to celebrate one of Kate’s little classmate friends.  The weather was SO nice and the kids had the best time.  Pool days are so much fun, no matter what the occasion is! I’m so happy that T & K got to go to the party .. I enjoyed myself, too! I got to have some adult interaction with people I enjoy talking to.. so YAAY for Momma! Kate Sweet Girls Tristan

our nesting place blogI’m starting to love pineapples lately.  I wish I had developed this love while we were living in hawaii, because I would have had access to pineapples at every turn! I saw this Scarlet & Gold print on SALE and I got myself a little treat.  I love it so much! It’s in my bathroom right now.  My friend Rachel mentioned that pineapples are a sign of Southern hospitality – I love that! Now that we are in the SOUTH, it’s time to get me some pineapple stuff 😉 Scarlet and Gold Pineapple Print

our nesting place blogI’m in love with succulents lately.  Well, any plants / flowers lately.  Once a week (sometimes twice) I go to Lowes and I check out their discount carts for plants.  I get things for $1.00 – $3.00.. and all they need is some love (and water!)  I’m either going to have to start planting things out in the front yard, or stop buying plants because I’m running out of room, and I don’t want to look like a crazy plant lady.  I found a hibiscus tree and 2 plumeria trees that were in desperate need of some love last week, and I felt so happy to bring them home and take care of them! Plumeria But anyways, succulents! I made some mason jar succulent starters for my kitchen windowsill this weekend! These things take about 5 minutes from start to finish.. and I just love them!  I am sharing these later this week as a guest blogger on another friends blog – I will let y’all know when it goes live! I’m so excited!Succulents our nesting place blogThis big guy is in summer school right now.  It’s the best summer school EVER.  They do something fun every single day.  He thinks he’s died and gone to heaven.  They go swimming, roller skating, to the movies, and to some game room type place.  My favorite part of the day is picking him up and hearing about what he got to do that day.  Last week he told me, “I got to skate .. for REAL!” ..haha! He keeps saying, “I can’t believe I’m in summer school, Momma”.. he thinks he’s big stuff. 😉 Our Nesting Place Blog

our nesting place blogTis the season for weddings and babies! I love it – so much happiness on my newsfeed lately! People are so richly blessed, and it’s so nice to see them give thanks to God for their blessings! Wishing everyone who’s entering these new seasons of life more blessings than they can handle! 

HAPPY MONDAY!

Christian Customer Service

CHRISTIAN CUSTOMER SERVICE This week I attended a support staff conference for the University I work for.  We had the opportunity to listen to some wonderful speakers who gave great messages that will help us not only at work, but in life.  One speaker in particular talked with us about customer service, and how WE are the face of the University to those on the outside.  How I act, how I treat those I deal with daily, and how I present myself gives that person a face of the University as a whole.  I can either make the University look good, or look bad.  That responsibility is on me.  

I couldn’t help but compare that to my life as a Christian.  What kind of “Christian customer service” do I provide? How I act, how I treat those I deal with daily, and how I present myself gives those on the outside a face of Jesus and a face of what a Christian is.  I can either make it look good, or I can make it look bad.  The responsibility is on me.  

Growing up I remember my mom telling me something similar to this.  She would tell me that as a Christian, I needed to act a certain way.  I needed to make sure I didn’t put myself into questionable situations.  For example : if I’m at church on Sunday leading my ladies group, then I’m blogging about my favorite bible study, but then you spot me coming out of a bar late at night, or you see me speaking in a disrespectful way, or you see me judging others in a non-Christian way, then what type of IMAGE.. what type of FACE am I giving to what it means to be a Christian? Not a very good one, in my opinion.

One thing that I think bothers me the most about fellow Christians, is the way they judge others. I, too, am guilty of this.. and it’s something that I try to be aware of and NOT do. I think a problem arises when we feel we possess the authority to do that which only God can do.  I can disagree with a persons lifestyle, I can be disappointed in their sin or their life choices, but I’m not going to judge that person and condemn them and refuse to show them love.  I don’t think that’s what Jesus would do, so I’m not going to do it either.  

All of that aside, I want to be a good face for Jesus.  I want to be a good face for Christianity.  I want to show others that God is good, and He loves them, and ANYONE is welcome with the opportunity to get into His Kingdom.  Everyone is worthy of His love.  I want to show that love to others, I want to show His kindness, I want to show His compassion, I want them to look at me .. to interact with me .. and feel the love of Jesus and to see His loving face looking back at them.  I want them to have such a great “customer service” experience, that they want more of what Jesus has to offer. 

One person at a time, one day at a time, one interaction at a time.. that’s what I’m going to try my best to do. 1 JOHN 2:6