I have a love hate relationship with technology. Growing up we didn’t have cell phones or iPads. I can remember when my family got internet for the very first time, the kind that makes that loud, strange noise when it’s logging you on. (some people will probably have no idea what I’m talking about) We thought it was just the coolest thing ever and would look up things like Jelly Belly jelly beans and The White House. We were so basic and we had a richer, more enjoyable life.
Fast forward almost 20 years and you can’t go anywhere without seeing 9 out of 10 people completely attached to their cell phone. People seriously cannot function without them, myself included. It’s a really sad problem. We are so dependent on our phones, and being interested in what our friend Susan is having for dinner, and we are missing so many things right in front of our faces. I hate it so much. I feel like it could be categorized as an addiction.
I have caught myself and my husband staring at our phones for at least an hour in the evenings and not ever speaking a word to one another. I’ve had to hear my kids make comments about how we are always looking at our phones. It breaks my heart to hear them say things like that, and it breaks my heart so much because it’s true. If I don’t have my phone with me, I catch myself reaching for it during every commercial on TV. I’ve pulled it out waiting at red lights. That’s only a couple examples. What is so important that I have to spend so much time on it? I will tell you, absolutely nothing.
I have tried in the past to put it away when the kids are awake to spend more time with them, but I will pull it out as soon as they’re in bed. Is my husband not important too? Shouldn’t I make a conscious effort to give him my time as well? I will say I’ve tried to do this, but I must admit I haven’t been super successful at it. It’s something I really, REALLY want to work on moving forward. The thought of my kids growing up and having memories of me always on my phone makes me sad. They see these things, and they’re not blind to it. They notice it from other family members as well. I hate that they are fighting with a cell phone for our attention.
I think it’s time to make a change.
This year I’m slowly working on becoming my best self, and this is one of the steps I feel like I need to take in order to do that. I need to give my kids and my husband my attention. I need to get my enjoyment from them, and not from people on the internet that I don’t even know.
I love technology for the way it allows me to keep up with friends and family back home, and all over the world. That’s the love part of the relationship I have with technology. I need to manage my time better when it comes to these things. Have meaningful time spent REALLY connecting with my friends rather than allowing myself to fall into a mindless distraction trap.
I hope you’ll join me.